I feel like an alcoholic. Only for me it is food.... I was doing so well with the gluten free lifestyle and then one day, boom... I just fell off the wagon and I can't even find the wagon to get back on. I think if I can face reality for a moment, I can admit that I have a food addiction. it is the only thing in my life right now that can make me happy. It is like a double edged sword though, those first bites make me so happy and then I feel guilt and a slew of other emotions. I am an emotional eater, I think I have always used food from one extreme to another, when I was much younger, I would not eat because I felt like the only thing in my life that I could actually have some control over was what I put into my mouth. It wasn't a good time in my life, but I was thin! now I am fat and I wish that I would be able to find some of the self control over food that I used to have! I am just so blah...
I can't even go to an OA meeting because any of those anonymous things have you put your faith in a higher power which definitely is not for me. No fairy tales for me.
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